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Name: Gene Gender: Male
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10/27/2008
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| Friday, time for staff retreat...gathering time is 7.45am @ lobby of NP...man reali shag, woke up at 5.15am then prepare this n that. On the way, i saw pore then hwee bin gettin on the bus, hehe least i wont be the only 1 who will be late =X
I didnt noe how this would end, i expected that i would be emo at some point and wouldnt blend in with the rest, but i'm too tired to think, the trip to Raffles Marina was spent either sleeping or
Okie, we were all separated into 5 grps, i looked ard for my name and when i finally found it, jiejie (Fiona) was in the same team, as i pull out my chair, jiejie already said that "y u in my team, take ur chair n go to another table" Pingping was stunned, shes halfway seated and after hearing tat she jus froze there ROFL After a light breakfast, addressing by Mrs Ang and a memory tok thingy, ways to improve our memory, hmm i'm quite confident of my own tho but not recently... too many things are taking up space and causing it to malfunction at times, headaches are a common side effect >.< Tok quite a lot wif pingping as shes my partner for the memory section.
Its time for games~ well better than talk mahz, so hard to sit still lol. 1st game is to build a roller coaster using straws, plastic sticks, tape, newspaper. In my Team were PingPing, Ammie, Suh Fen, Lucy, Pradheep & JieJie. I asked jiejie wat concept we gonna build this on, well there wasnt reali an idea voiced out so i took over and delegated the jobs to members.
 This is wat we came up with, a hump is a requirement, we focus on the foundation to make it strong enugh to support the tennis ball which is roll down as a test. We were so happy after we had completed it, as we're the 1st team to be judged, i joke tat aiyo the best must leave for last de mahz, hahaha pingping giggled and say we must be humble. We won 1st prize in the end, heh i shd be a architect? or construction worker izzit? hahahahaha
  Heres how judging is, everyone gathers ard to see if the tennis ball rolls as planned, other criteria are the time taken to complete the roller coaster and etc
  We were asked to present as well, the concept, the teamwork behind our "product" On the right ya can see the ball is stuck, tat would lead to a lower score.
Speaking of presenting on the product, as jiejie is the leader, shes the 1 presenting, i went off to take pics but even b4 i can point the camera. I heard a commotion hahaha jiejie is looking for me to continue the presentation, shes sorta at a loss of wat to say, in the end i took over n say lotsa crap =X
   Ahhh the girl in the mid, wearing specs, tats Xiaoyan. Hmm shes a beri beri guai girl, shy shy and not reali someone with much words, shes 26 as well. The funny thing is, work for 6mths le, i neber tok to her b4 wor, cept work related.
 Ahhh Chk, the 1 holding the tennis ball hmm well not much to be said rite? Ya can guess how is he from the word CHK and he cmi de. Again Xiaoyan is pretty sweet when in this pic when she smiles.
Moving on to 2nd game, places of interest + couples in ngee ann, this is not my forte at all, neber travel much cept to m'sia only + dunno anyone else from other depts tat were flashed. We got 1st as well cos of the other members. After tat was photo session at stairs followed by lunchtime damn i got emo suddenly, prolly cos of sea.
 This was taken after lunch, the day was bright n sunny and damn hot lor. i stand at the railing...looking out at the sea, thinkin of the past, kinda reminds a bit of punggol end...     We were facing such scenery for our lunch, at that moment, i jus dun wanna sit n listen on to others' conversation...i jus wanna take a walk   
Moving on to 2nd half of the day, theres a change of team. Cm is in the same team as me, she said the same as jiejie on why in the same team, altho i noe both of them are joking, but i was already emoing b4 cm said that, at that point of time i reali felt like leaving & ending the day...oh yea i'm in the same team as Xiaoyan tho.
It was a health talk, beri de boring...so i joke ard and finally spoke to Xiaoyan. I noticed that whenever i joke with cm, Xy would turn her head towards us, shes prolly bored and wanna join in the fun. I did try my best as in when i joke, sometimes i will say a little louder so tat she can hear as well.
I took out my eclipse and noticed that she has been eating it as well, jus tat hers is blue colour de, mine is green hahahaha bo bian, both of us were falling asleep i guess.Its kinda fun interacting with her btw After the tok, got break b4 proceeding to farm, she ask got things to eat mahz, i was like huh we jus ate wor.
As we move out of the room, i told edwin that i had made conversation to Xiaoyan, he went like "go for it, tok somemore to her" =.=||| so i demo to him lor hahahaha cos reali got snacks to eat wor, i spoke to Xiaoyan "reali got snacks to eat wor" heh i guess its the 1st time he saw me toking to her. gave me the jia you, u can make it look....but i'm not reali looking for a gf nor a fren...
Last stop was a farm, i'm reali tired, so i close my eyes n slept throughout the journey, i dun feel like toking or looking ard, jus wanna close eyes & be alone Its a wheatgrass/mushroom, lingzhi etc de farm, when the speaker intro us to wheatgrass, i took a nap, i dun like the taste so confirm not interested in the benefits cos i wont drink it. After tat i got tok to Xiaoyan 2 more times, asking if shes sleepy or not from the speech, apparently shes not, unlike me hahahahaha We went on to "Sales" section, there was a thingy called "luo shen guo" edwin ask me wat it is and i reply n say its a god whos fallen and bear fruits, surprisingly, xy turned and ask kartini whether she had heard wat i had said...hehehe her expression beri de cute cos i wasnt expecting her to comment on my joke >.<
Pingping ask me abt the memory again (10 items tat i rem in less than 2mins) of cos i can recall it, even till now after all i do have selective memory as i have come to noe.
Jiejie drove today, sooo tongbang in her car lor, she drop us - edwin, chk and me at mac reservoir, i didnt tok much during the ride, if they ask, i ans, if not i kept quiet. I took 74 with chk, he did most of the talking, i dun reali wish to tok abt anything, from wat i noe, hes 31yrs old, no driving licence, not married, k enugh abt him le.
Surprisingly i saw my nainai~!!! at least look its her lar. Sooo sad tat she does not recognize me but its been 10yrs...cant blame her lor. K back to Xiaoyan, how i feel at the end of the day, its almost like in 1 day, we went from strangers who had not spoken to ea other, to being frens...sadly, i dun like this feeling...prolly will avoid any more conversation...wif her...if possible... In FB, edwin mention tat i got something special gg on wif xy, jiejie join in n say, nv jio her to discuss, she can ask xy anything i wanna noe...buay tahan them...the thing is, i'm not looking for a gf, not reali a normal fren as well...think i rather still close off my heart to others, oh yea jiejie said she think xy has bf, hmm it doesnt concern me also mahz, a gd girl like her confirm got suitors n bf de mahz =.=|||
Dajie is right abt the mislead, i shd prolly stop everything tat involves xy, even as a joke...come to think of it, i've grown far apart with my poly clicks, even my daughters...sharon is gettin married, i even wanted to give her wedding a miss...heh some kinda ah pa i am...ah girl lehz...most of the time, i couldnt even be bothered to msn her even when i see her online... Been feeling sharp pain @ left chest, guess its my heart...no plans to check up, if its time then its time, i prolly wont live long anyway...God bless hahahaha
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| Hmm didnt expect to find pri sch fren thru facebook, i had gotten a msg in my inbox 1 day, when i opened it, i saw her msg, she mentioned that shes my pri 1-4 classmate named carol, i had no idea who she is at 1st, but somehow i rem abt her name, it appears tat we have 2 carol back then, hmm but i rem only 1 n tats her. It doesnt mean anything tho, shes e only carol i noe in my whole life.
After we added ea other on msn, we practically chat away for abt 5 hrs, till almost 3am....next day is friday...i still have to work, this is sad. I was like half dead into the morning until 10+, i saw her msn msg, here goes again, we chatted all the way till i ended work. tats like from 10 to 6pm, reali the power the only time we didnt chat is during my 1 hr lunch break. The thing is, after i reach hme, we still continue to tok for a while b4 she went out. I slept early cos cannot take it le, reali tired, in the end i saw her sms, saying how come slp so early izzit wanna avoid chat marathon hahahaha beri de funny.
Sat n Sun were spent chatting with her as well, helped her edit a ppt slide, she amazes me, currently shes doing her masters, shes aiming for PHD in the end. Shes prolly gonna scare guys off hahahaha. Now shes prolly @ Comex show.
Oh yea the weird thing is, we tok abt anything under the sun, can ya imagine... thursday she added me, & i actually know her cup size now? hahahaha reali omg lar but chatting with her is interesting. Least shes someone who enables me to focus on the present & future instead of the past...
08 Sep 09
Got a call from my sis when i was still in office, she informed me abt the Gundam event. I was always interested in gundam model. After work i went down to take a look, hmm it showcased past winners and all the gundams from all the series, but i'm disappointed in some model kit, they didnt even file or sand, they jus fix it up and display more like a work of a mere beginner, i wonder who made tat?
 Gundam 00 if not wrong, or exia, I didnt take much pics cos the rest doesnt catch my eye. Destiny Gundam, a gem, i like the wings especially, the 1st part of the wing is made bigger than normal, making it look much better, awesomeness and appears to be more powerful than usual.
21 Aug 09
Today jason jio me for dinner, so i met him @ amk there then we went to PS cos he wanted to change his sim card @ starhub. Ajisen was crowded so we went next to Ajitei hmm bad bad experience, the food is practically not worth paying for, quality is not there and i personally feel its overpriced, sashimi sucks btw, tot it would be gd quality @ $1 per pc =.=||| soooo disappointed.
 The tako still can make it, the chicken with egg hmmm passable bahz, nth reali special.
 Tofu hmm doesnt suit my taste, as for the fizzy blue coral drink....$3.80 isnt jus worth it =.=|||
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| 04 Aug 09
   Hmm heard tat edwin is gg down to bugis, so i tag along in order to find something for xiao mao mi, i didnt take pic of the flower, well its jus 1 stalk of pink rose, if giv too many = beri weird. Went to Cold Storage, had 3 colours to choose from red, blue n pink rose but i chose pink base on my understanding/observation of her. The bear n the rose were bought 1st, then off i went to find the T shirt, since i always call her Da or Xiao Huai Dan, so Miss Naughty is suitable and the colour is chosen based on her usual dressin so that she can match her jeans. I must say i did quite a good job in wrapping of the present tho i muz admit i noe nuts abt present wrapping.
  Lunch was at New Garo @ Chuntin road, had to liaise with the staff in order to go nearby to collect and pass the cake to the staff, i didnt take pic of my food, hmm cant say its all tat special, quite average food but the ambience is good, relaxing type...kinda make me feel like bringing shirley there... Ahhh yes this is the cake "German CheeseCake", the shop dun provide whole cake de so its specially for today niaz. She tot i would be the 1 who bring out the cake, nahz, its too weird as well and i'm not suitable for sch a delicate job, if the person is shirley i guess i would prolly do just that... holding the cake and singing her a bday song as i walk towards her...    Well photo taking is hard, sony's capturing spd is a little slow and she always tot that once flash is out then it means pic taken but capturing happens after the flash. Sooo took quite a few pics till she finally pose and stayed.
  Wan bin n her were removing the plastic surrounding the side of the cake, ahhh heres her cake cutting ceremony or so to speak, the various gifts were given to her after we returned to the office. I'm not sure whether shes touched or not but least i had done wat i had set out to do mths ago...i often wondered... wats the reason do i hav to go to such great lengths for someone i had known for ard 4mths...Sometimes it often links back to shirley...
 
   Hmmm why did i edit n add in captions for the above? i reali have no idea...i didnt spend much time on it, its more like when i wanna add in the words, it came to my mind naturally...in a way i'm gald this is over... I cant reali continue having my mind keep planning/thinking abt some event...least my mind is free up...
Misc entries 20 July 09
 Went to chill @ amk hub, this is the shop near the 2nd floor escalator de, lotus leaf rice, not bad, the rice doesnt stick to the leaf and its small portion is just right for a snack.
 Hmm spicy dumpling and errr i forgot the other name but both are good, wouldnt mind eating it again. Oh yea if u ordered their tau huey shui hor, rem to add the syrup urself, its up to u to adjust the sweetness.
Lastly for dessert, strawberry snow ice...snow ice was her fav but choco favour tho. Looks nice but dun take a big mouthful of the syrup cos its too sweet, the strawberry is kinda sour but its within my limit.
Dinner @ Jalan Kayu wif kuku jason
 Hmm nth much actually, but since got take pic then post lor, mee goreng & milo dinosaur, the milo is good, much better than other places, had pratas as well. After which its just chilling n relaxing over @ my blk, tok abt games/ghosts etc etc hahaha too bo liao bahz.
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| 16 July 09
Today was kinda boring, heard that chunhua and sharon are gonna go suntec to choose a present for Peishan, soooo i tag along. Hmm we walk suntec's pushcart section and shops that sells bags but nothing caught our eyes. I was feeling a little hungry so i suggested eating 1st b4 continuing wif the search, sharon st8 away looked at me wif eyes that agreed, nodding her head and saying yea eat 1st. Eating was a headache too, ended up @ Ichiban Boshi again, well not tat it reali matters.
  Cheese delight & salmon simi sai, the cheese delight was ok but the salmon hmmm seafood + cheese + sweet and sour sauce omg complicated and yet unappealing taste.
 Ahh the little takos, reminded me of tat time wif ying, oh well past is past, errr i had no idea wat sharon had, normally i jus take pic of my own food but she sorta tot i was gonna take all of the food sooo yea...
   Tamago nigiri, standard taste, chicken katsu with cheese, hmm not bad, passable but dun dip the brown sauce, tat sucks. Lastly tori karage not eaten by me sooo no idea abt the taste.
In the end we proceeded to John Little and then this daughter of mine started looking at her own bags instead of choosing a present, omg still dare to say, ah pa this 1 nice hor / ah pa help me take tat 1 down / ah pa help me put it back... =.=||| Still...nth good from JL, went to look at cosmetics later on, but as the store is closing, we didnt manage to get anything. At last, the best suggestion for the day from sharon was to head up and look for bag at Tomato can, she still went back to her shopping style from earlier but its ok as finally a present was chosen for Peishan, a bag + a pouch.
 Had forgotten once again to take the pic of the food that i'm gonna eat b4 i reali dig in =.=||| Marble cheesecake was not bad, for me its chocolate overpowers the taste of cheesecake but at least one doesnt get sick of the cake after a few bites.I forgot what drink i had, prolly a milky thingy, well kinda average i guess.
18 July 09
 I was the last person to arrive, dinner was at Swiss Culture. Had errr Chicken zurich style i think, sharon had sandwich shd be teriyaki chicken bahz. The butter noodle were kinda little and the chicken was given too much, after the salad and the noodle were gone, theres still quite a fair bit of chicken left but overall the taste is passable, price is reasonable, services were not bad as well.
 This is wat peishan had which i had no idea wat it is. Ahhh the cake, chunhua signal to me that to bring out the cake, at 1st i couldnt catch it, the staff asked if i wanna place it on a cake, well of cos i do LOL Strawberry shortcake by Bakerzin. Looks kinda good huh?
 Yup yup here u see the bday girl making her wish, i wonder what is she wishing? for $$$? for marriage?? for family??? but 1 thing is for sure, it aint like my wish....haiz kena reminded again.
 Waaa laughing so happily siaz, muz have been touched or something like tat, her bf tot i go order beer lor when i went to asked for the cake to be brought out =.=||| pls lehz i'm not reali a a guy who lives on liquor...
  Cutting of cake ceremony~!!! ooo cant wait for the distribution of cakes yummy~!!! *drools* Oooo Swiss culture is famous for their cheese fondue but its ard $35 or so, they ordered a choco fondue, above is the sides that comes with it.
  The choco is not bad, not bitter not too sweet either so you wont get sick of it even if u're the 1 eating the whole fondue. Hmm thats a marshmellow & strawberry, poor them, they had to hold it in tat position so that i could capture it, the marsh was all covered in choco so sharon only dip the strawberry halfway in, jus for my photography, thanks lar daughter~ hahahahaha
 After dinner we head to Cafe Cartel to chill out. Waffle was ordered by Chunhua, i order the tropical sunrise which had mango and vanilla in it, i pratically left half a cup there, case closed.
 OMG cheesecakes again, i had been testing cheesecake from various shops in order to find a reali nice 1 for my boss, so far she dunno whats my plan, the problem is with the sub plan, i had no idea what to get for her other than the cake, haiz soooo headache~!!! Blueberry cc wasnt tat nice, didnt like it at all, their standard cc was kinda strong, sooo eating a few slices is kinda impossible even for cc lovers.
 Hehehe suddenly slot in this pic, they opened their eyes not long after, still so tiny, machiam like 3cm or so...but boy do they grow fast, will upload pics of them grown up later. But 3 of them takes after their mom and 1 of them takes over their dad de colour. Oh yea when i place him on my table, he didnt even move at all lor hahaha ji weird, maybe still young, haben seen the outside of his cage =X
Now to come to the title of this blog entry, to dream a dream, i guess its quite easy to understand bahz. 1 night i dreamt of a girl, hmm doesnt look local, small build, sweet guai guai looking type, she shd be my gf bahz cos we were kinda behaving like a couple (in my dream lar), we were brushing our cheek against ea other & kissing, huggingg her as we walk the empty street, sorta in a world of our own then i woke up~ a dream is still a dream, woke up alone in my room only did then reality strike me deep....
the next night...i dream of Shirley, =.=||| 2 continuous dream? am i longing for love? no ans to tat tho... dreamt that she is having problems with her bf so she came to me for comfort, actually this is how we sorta started, our frenship deepens when she started telling me abt her problems and i started to give the spare time i could afford to her...the spare time which ying couldnt fork out during tat period, we're tgt. Sometimes i jus hate my love life...
25 July 09
Today was audit lunch...as expected i didnt reali enjoy much, well i still could crack jokes and laugh but...there would be times when i would just stare off into space and my tots would wander off... then all laughter would be gone, a serious face would come on....this is the real me...I didnt take any pic at all...not of the food i ate and no i didnt forget abt taking pic, i jus wasnt in the mood to do so...to lighten up, i asked cm whether wanna take a pic so ended up this is the only pic taken that whole day...
Wan bin & Cheang Meng
Hmm dun reali noe wat to write over here...i couldnt gather my tots, Lets just leave it for now bahz
29th July 09
Things didnt reali go well....i had been troubling over whether or not to go for the m'sia trip with my daughters etc...only peishan's bf will be going but he will be meeting the girls later on. M'sia isnt reali a safe place, with 4-5 girls going in alone...tat troubles me...but i wasnt in the mood to go... city square was their plan...sharon ask me to intro her to the stonegrill restaurant which enables the diner to cook his/her own food...the thing is...shirley & i often went in to m'sia, one of our V day was spent there...at the restaurant...i dun reali noe if i could take it if i reali went there.... today i mentioned a bit to edwin abt this m'sia thingy, tears started to flow...not sure if jiejie saw it or not...i jus noticed when she turn ard to look at me, within secs she turn her head back.... Go for the sake of taking care of the girls? or reject cos it will only bring me painful memories? What am i suppose to choose...do i even have a choice?....
A news came, my boss is taking leave on her bday to go to JBP with her family, tats gd, i'm happy for her but she kept saying that i shdnt plan anything for her...i asked her whether the day b4 she will be in office or not, she said she dunno....tat actually sets me thinking that i reali shdnt do anythin...i'm reali tired of everything...the mths of planning...waiting...the testing of cheesecakes... gathering comments and suggestions from all over...all in vain...i guess its jus wishful thinking on my part...i'm not the kind of person who wans others to noe wat i did for them...even if they do not appreciate it then so be it bahz...
She msn me to say sorry, she tot it was something she said tat made me angry...well i dunno i learn from where de tat 1 shouldnt apologize if u dun even noe what u're saying sorry for...it might just make the person even more angry than b4. Haiz didnt reali wan it to come to this...the last thing i wan is an apology, i guess i'm angry with myself rather than wif her...Why did i even come up wif this stupd idea....i guess this time i shall not be stuborn...
Been 2 days i've not gone to lunch with them...i think this will continue for a long time...Its jus like my msn nick said "我真的累了...真想放下所有的一切..." no more plannin of such things le...i'm reali tired...
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| 03 July 09
Today was not reali a gd day, somehow i kept thinking of the past, tat led me to being emotionless during work. Actually our section was supposed to have go for a movie on 10 July Friday, after tat Cheang meng (Xiao mao mi aka boss),Wan Bin, Edwin & Fiona (my jiejie) but i rejected both the movie n dinner which i had agreed earlier on. Guess i muz have worried xiao mao mi also, cos morning when she passed me doc, she stayed at the side of my workdesk, she ask me to finish wat i was doing. After which she asked me what happened? I didnt reali have the mood to answer, so i jus shake my head n continue my work and gesture to her to go back to work. I lunch with edwin only, didnt wanna affect others.
 Had hawaiian pizza, starry muchies and drumlets, well drumlets was not ordered by me. Hawaiian is her fav...i got emotional even in pizza hut restaurant...The day got pass fast as i was just concentrating on my work only and nth else, no joking or laughing, jus totally work...Fiona bought a cup of coffe for me, she said its to perk me up for the afternoon ahead, she said i look lifeless...perhaps its kinda true... Shes a gd jiejie but her words often doesnt show any mercy but i noe shes caring de ^^
 Ice Age 3 - Dawn of the dinosaurs. This is another must watch movie, its good~! funny of cos i laugh out loud at most part of the show but...it does hit my weak spot during a few mins..... i didnt watch it in 3D sooo i wouldnt noe the effects but its good even without 3D, worth e watch.
04 July 09
Actually today i didnt reali wanna go for badminton, had been affected by many issues but in the end i still went for it to pei ah girl or rather ah girl pei wo, its both ways. Meeting up with ah girl...well my mood wasnt as bad as ytd but at some parts of the journey i do emo & kept quiet cos i passed by khatib, yishun & worse of all...woodlands...
Didnt play much today, we head to Jurong Point to have our lunch. i think we stayed quite long, had quite a few topics to chat i guess? i cant rem much of it either...my mind just isnt there...oh forgot to mention tat the place of makan is at Ajisen, its my 1st time eating at ajisen tho.
Oooo another thing, chunhua mention our office de ammie, at least i think tats her name, commented that edwin is wearing much better and my dressing seems to be "run down", i was very displeased bcos we both wore polo tees, jeans + shoes for friday (dressdown), i couldnt see in which way am is my dressing inferior compared to him anyway prolly bias prejudiced or similar, cant be bothered, she looked like an old old auntie anyway muz be chao lao look compared to her age. My guess is prolly late 30s tat type.
  Had Ton toro ramen hmm i wonder why theres no english explanation in the menu, gd thing is i understand japanese language so i know exactly what i'm ordering. Oh yea my side dish is silver fish, sharon ordered the below to share among us.
 Quite good looking pc of food i muz say, we cut it into 4 pcs, i got 1 pc. Hmm there are prawns in it. Next time can order again cos its kinda tasty. Ah girl and i shared banana spilt, hmm jus the 2 of us ate tho cos nobody is interested in it but its kinda funny since having different flavours needed to add $1, when it comes to paying, ah girl didnt withdraw cash and shes missing a few bucks so i jus paid for wat shes missing.
It was abt 4+ when we went to NTUC to buy some stuff as chips for mahjong later, not playing $$$ but its not interesting when winner gets nth so chocolates n sweets were agreed to be subsitutes for chips. This daughter of mine hor sharon, go test quite a lot of food, from salad, to juice, to mushroom... Omg i told her dun become like aunite lar, ah girl passed me a half sesame red bean ball to test, after tat sharon also pass me her remaining share of the sesame ball... =.=||| But.... my ah girl also got test quite a few things, hmm sharon fed me the salad, ah girl fed me the remaining half mushroom she had eaten. Not bad to have daughters bahz~ ^^
I kept losing @ mahjong, i dunno y...perhaps...its got to do with mood, i had a bottle of breezer... which is also her fav...and 2 bottles of corona...wish i were those type tat got drunk easily...least i can forget my troubles for a while...
Dinner was at a kopitiam @ pioneer, had dim sum, treated both my daughters this time, wasnt reali tat nice, didnt take any pics of it, returned hme with ah girl, i could hav taken the shorter route hme but i guess i needed someone to be with me for as long the journey could have been....Kinda felt like strangling her when she suan me at amk, in the end i jus "caress" her hair/head in a jokingly angry manner well hard to describe. Before she alight the bus, i sayang her head quite a lot of times... after which i went into emo mode....
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